Time heals.🌈

Last line from you was that ” time heals”. But sweetheart time is passing. Telling these two words you forgot that the scars that love gave me will not be healed with time or any sort of pain killer . Yaa that’s true ” waqt kisi ke liye nahi rukta ” but when you have loved someone by ❤️, the person, as time passes is being killed daily,not by the harsh words of yours but by the memories you left. ‘Memory’ is just a word for many but for me it is the emotions and my feelings I had when I was with you. Do you remember those non stop fights; keeping half of the popcorn in your teeth and Ur face infront of mine for me to bite the rest of it, you remember how you behaved when I took your favorite black coldrink, haha! your face turned like a 11 months baby. I never had the intension to have a sip of your cold drink, because i knew it is my responsibility to provide u with the things you love…but my intention of taking away the drink was to see the face you made, that face of Kashu which i love to see. You remember the silly behavior of mine of not eating even a single bite with my own hands when I was with you.Actually I would have eaten but the hands of yours when held the food in front of my mouth and I took a bite was the most loved time I had and these are the golden memories now. You remember when you kissed me on my forehead for the first time,that was not just a random kiss between two couples, that was the moment my dead soul breathed again, the nerves carrying my impure blood became pure again. That day you kissed my soul, yes u didn’t kiss me but you kissed the inner me that is my soul. U know I never kissed someone on the forhead before, because I never got that strong feeling and emotion for anyone that I got for you. Do you remember when we use to talk, the way you played with my hair while talking.Your touch made me forget everything what I wanted to say. When I came to the bridge to pick you up, when from a distance I looked at you coming towards me, my heart started melting because the distance and the time to meet you was finally going to end. When I used to drop you home, tears rolled down my cheeks.The way u said I love you and I asked ‘kitna’ from the very 1st of our relationship, u just uttered ‘bohot’ and then added this ‘challll nikalllll’ with it, that moment was bliss. You remember na how I craved for the moment, your head on my shoulder holding me tightly I got that moment maybe a very few times but it was amazing. The way I watched you during the movies, mostly during the 3D movies , that wicked glasses was the one I hated the most . Because when I saw u through them you looked colorful. The moment I starred at you and when you looked in my eyes,slowly I turned my eyes towards the screen. Those were very small moments but I lived them as the my most precious moments of my life. Don’t you remember those things? I always make my heart believe that you must be thinking of me as am doing. Every moment I think that maybe you are also cherishing those moments. But am really confused about it because if you would have remembered those moments then you would not have left. If you would have remembered these moments you would have not made these as memories. If you would have remembered those silly behaviors of mine than you would also remembered that I loved you and still i love you and my feelings for u are increasing day by day. I lied but the reason you would have known if you have gone through our love story. If you would have read the story u would have returned ,Because that was the page I wrote all my madness and my pain behind my everything and sorry I can’t complete my love for you on that page because I don’t want to keep on writing forever. Mere haath dukh jayenge😆 but baby time doesn’t heals cause its not healing me…it is only increasing my craving for u more and more.Its not healing,just making me forcefully accept that u are not mine anymore. Its making me live with ur memories and pictures and not u yourself.Is this what you call healing?